13 October 2017

Dreamer’s World October 13, 2017 – No Time For Superstition

    The weekend is nearly here. The calendar says it is Friday the 13th, but I don’t care at all. I am not superstitious if anything wrong happens today it doesn’t mean that there are supernatural powers at work around sometime after work. The day is cool and cloudy, but that won't stop me from enjoying the day and especially the time to spend with Hal and The Stooges after work.

    Right now, the only plans that we have are to stop by Hal’s work and pick up something that he accidentally left there earlier in the week. After that, we will probably get some groceries and then head back home. I know, lots of excitement around here, but it suits us. We enjoy being with each other, and nothing beats having time together no matter what the calendar says or what the weather is like.

12 October 2017

Dreamer's World October 12, 2017 - Seriously Thinking About Taking A Day Off Soon

As the day starts here at work, I find myself thinking about how glad I am that this short week is almost over with. I am tired from all of the extra crap that I knew was going to happen with other people attempting to cram 5 days worth of work into 4 days because they cannot accept a holiday when it occurs.
I checked my timesheet and see that I have some extra time that I can use to take a day here and there. The temptation is overwhelming to do so, but I already submitted the timesheet to cover this week and I hate going through the hassle to change it. I think that I will schedule a day off (or two) in the near future because I feel the need for a mental health day building up.
I will have to check the calendar for the next few weeks and see what time will work best for me. I don’t have any preference other than to get away for a little while and allow myself to relax.
Hal The Cat decided that he wanted to get his new box back after I had stored it in a corner. He managed to pull the box out of the corner and was making all sorts of noise about opening it.
Finally, in order to stop the noise and meowing, I put the box onto the bed and opened it. Now Hal The Cat is happy, and that makes me happy as well.
Keeping Hal The Cat happy is very important to me since he spends most of the day here watching me as I write and work. I don't mind at all because he is a great companion. Occasionally he will voice his opinion during a conference call, and by now most people I talk with regularly know his voice when they hear it. This usually prompts people to ask him how he is doing so they can hear him talk even more. Hal The Cat always has something important to say.

Obviously, Hal The Cat has taken me away from my original topic and that is taking some time away from work to relax. Purrrhaps Hal The Cat is simply showing me how relaxing should be done because he probably understands everything that I am writing.

Dreamer’s World October 12, 2017 – The Small Things

    Far too often we forget that it is the smallest thing that can make a day turn out completely different than what we expect. It is amazing how much a little situation can change a day for the better, but we are usually in too much of a hurry to notice, let alone actually appreciate these things. The perspective that we gain from understanding these events is delightful.
    I experienced such an event yesterday when I traveled to meet with the client. There is a new wrinkle to the schedule with the meeting scheduled for later in the morning than before. This gives me time to grab a lite breakfast while I am in town. I was in the building cafeteria to get my food, and I needed some assistance from one of the young men who was working there to get everything that I needed so I could be on my way. Like any large office building cafeteria, it was extremely crowded and full of people who were lost in their own little worlds.
    I politely asked the young man for assistance, and he responded promptly and pleasantly in return. In my haste to get back to my meeting, I neglected to thank him. I was in a rush and didn’t realize this until I was away from the cafeteria. I realized that not thanking him was bothering me and I made the conscious decision to stop at the cafeteria on my way out of the building later to thank him personally.
    Fate intervened, and as I was on my way back to the cafeteria after finishing my meeting, I decided that I would stop at the restroom on the first floor of the building near the cafeteria before going to thank him. To my surprise, he was coming out of the restroom as I was going in. I stopped him and told him that I was sorry for not taking the time to thank him for helping me earlier in the morning. I expected a blasé response from him, but to my surprise, he reached out and took my hand to thank me for remembering him. We talked for a few minutes. He is a college student working several part-time jobs to get by and trying to better himself. He told me that he often remembers faces during his busy days, mostly because of negative experiences, or people taking him for granted. He was pleasantly surprised that I remembered him enough to speak to him away from his work. He said that as soon as he saw me, he recalled me from earlier, but he never expected me to remember him, let alone taking the time to thank him personally.

    I felt so good for the rest of the day, there was a joy and peace that made everything else irrelevant. It is incredible how much better a day can be when we are kind and human to each other. When we build each other up rather than tearing each other down, the world can be a beautiful place.

06 October 2017

Dreamer’s World October 06, 2017 – It’s The Little Things

    This morning, I woke up to find Hal The Cat sleeping next to me and to the sound of Spartacus greeting me with a friendly meow to announce that Friday had arrived. I deliberately laid there in bed, soaking in the beautiful feeling from two of The Stooges for a few minutes. I enjoyed the peace and calm, and I knew that this is what I have been searching for. All of the introspection of the last few days suddenly came into focus for me.
    I had to finally get out of bed and take care of my morning absolutions before starting work. There was the typical mountain of emails to get through as I signed into work, and I dutifully responded to the high priority issues and set the less critical emails aside to deal with later in the day. I met Hal (person) in the kitchen and my day improved yet again. I do miss sleeping together, but as we have gotten older, our backs have taken separate journeys, and there is just no mattress that we can both agree on that will give us both relief from our occasional aches and pains. This makes the first meeting of the morning that much more special.
    The Stooges joined us in the kitchen, creeping around and between our feet as Hal (person) and I enjoyed our morning hug. After all, it was time for their breakfast as well as ours. I reluctantly left the kitchen to return to work, knowing that I have to complete yet another draft for a project that is looming over me before a review meeting this afternoon. Once I have completed that meeting and noted the suggested improvements for the target audience, my 3-day weekend will commence.

    I saw only a little of the news online this morning, and that was more than enough to convince me that I didn’t need to see any more for a while. I don’t want the problems of the world to intrude on my own little private Idaho. The feelings I have described have been missing from my life for too long, and I am not letting them go without a fight. I have a sense of Peace this morning that I have been lacking. For now, my search for serenity is over. I suppose the way I am feeling explains why I am hearing the Queen song “Don’t Stop Me Now” over and over in my head this morning. It certainly seems like the anthem for my day, so I don’t mind at all.

Dreamer’s World October 05, 2017 – Isolating Myself

    Sometimes I forget how much my life has changed over the last 10 years. I have to take the time and deliberately look back to see how far I have come. I am no longer living paycheck-to-paycheck and scrambling to stay one step ahead of the bills. I still have debts, but they are less now, and manageable as I pay them down. I realize that I no longer have to seek outlets to get away from everyday life and the challenges it presents. My interest in politics is still as keen as ever, but I know now that I used that as a reason to avoid everyday issues for a long time.
    It was a year ago that Hal and I decided that we were going to move to a smaller place and focus on ourselves for a change. We were going to save more money and focus on each other and The Stooges. It seemed like a huge decision at the time, and it was, but it was the first step in taking back control of our lives. As I look back to that decision, it was one of the best that we have ever made. We are happier now because we have gained control over the things that we were struggling against.
    It was so easy to lose myself in the grand struggle against injustice, but at the same time, I was also running away from my own problems. I understand that I cannot change the world single-handed, but I also don’t feel the same need to artificially inject things into my life to get me through the day. I was running away from life rather than embracing it, and those times I missed will never come again. I found little joy in my life outside of Hal and The Stooges, they were my fortress against the outside world.
    Things are better now. I feel I can breathe again. I have slowly regained control over my life and the stuff in it. I no longer live in dread of things, I look forward to them. I no longer feel like I am just surviving. The key to achieving this freedom was, ironically, isolating myself in no small degree from things that I used to worry about. I have discovered the patterns that made me unhappy, and I can now take the necessary steps to eliminate them.
    Instead of always focusing on the negative, I have to make the conscious effort to look on the bright side. This isn't as easy as it sounds because we are all creatures of habit, be they good or bad. Rather than engaging in a futile struggle to find the next windmill to joust to prove my own self-worth, I need to find a more worthy opponent to challenge me. My core beliefs have not changed, but my outlook has, and I approach the things I care about from a more positive angle.
    Anger and resentment and jealousy and fear are no longer in control of my life. I am not entirely free of those negative emotions, but I am in control of them, and it is a beautiful feeling.

    Isolating myself does not mean completely cutting myself off from the world, it means that I now approach the world from a more complete perspective that I control for a change.

05 October 2017

Dreamer’s World October 04, 2017 - Sunshine

    Sometimes, we all need some sunshine in our lives to remind us that life is wonderful. After the tragedies of the last few days, turning off the TV and looking out the window is the best therapy for a sick world.

    I hope that the sun is shining wherever you are. If it isn't, don’t give up. If it is, get out and enjoy the sunshine. 

03 October 2017

Dreamer’s World October 03, 2017 – Free Fallin’

    I was completely stunned to hear that Tom Petty dies last night. I remember hearing the song “Refugee” by Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers when it first played on the radio in early 1980 and I was amazed at the sound of the band, but the lyrics, and by Tom Petty’s voice. It seemed like the perfect mixture of talent and appeal. I was about to turn 16 that month and I thought that these were musicians that I could follow for years if I was lucky.
    It turned out that I was very lucky indeed, but 37 years later, the music has stopped. Much like David Bowie and Prince, Tom Petty is a huge part to the soundtrack of my life. The various incarnations of Tom Petty, and also of Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers, was a wonderful accompaniment to my personal journey. My musical tastes have expanded through my life, but Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers always have a prime spot on the playlist.
    A great song captures the moment when you first hear it. It preserves the memories like nothing else. When I want to think back to a part of my life there is always a song that will take me there. Tom Petty’s music always brings a smile because it was so beautiful.

Well, I won't back down
No, I won't back down
You can stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won't back down
No, I'll stand my ground
Won't be turned around
And I'll keep this world from draggin' me down
Gonna stand my ground

Somewhere, somehow somebody
Must have kicked you around some
Tell me why you want to lay there
And revel in your abandon
Listen it don't make no difference to me baby
Everybody's had to fight to be free
You see you don't have to live like a refugee
Now baby you don't have to live like a refugee

Into the great wide open
Under them skies of blue
Out in the great wide open
A rebel without a clue

Well I started out down a dirty road
Started out all alone
And the sun went down as I crossed the hill
And the town lit up, the world got still
I'm learning to fly, but I ain't got wings
Coming down is the hardest thing

I wanna free fall, out into nothin’
I wanna leave this world for awhile

Thank you for the music, Tom. R.I.P.