13 October 2017

Dreamer’s World October 13, 2017 – No Time For Superstition

    The weekend is nearly here. The calendar says it is Friday the 13th, but I don’t care at all. I am not superstitious if anything wrong happens today it doesn’t mean that there are supernatural powers at work around sometime after work. The day is cool and cloudy, but that won't stop me from enjoying the day and especially the time to spend with Hal and The Stooges after work.

    Right now, the only plans that we have are to stop by Hal’s work and pick up something that he accidentally left there earlier in the week. After that, we will probably get some groceries and then head back home. I know, lots of excitement around here, but it suits us. We enjoy being with each other, and nothing beats having time together no matter what the calendar says or what the weather is like.

12 October 2017

Dreamer's World October 12, 2017 - Seriously Thinking About Taking A Day Off Soon

As the day starts here at work, I find myself thinking about how glad I am that this short week is almost over with. I am tired from all of the extra crap that I knew was going to happen with other people attempting to cram 5 days worth of work into 4 days because they cannot accept a holiday when it occurs.
I checked my timesheet and see that I have some extra time that I can use to take a day here and there. The temptation is overwhelming to do so, but I already submitted the timesheet to cover this week and I hate going through the hassle to change it. I think that I will schedule a day off (or two) in the near future because I feel the need for a mental health day building up.
I will have to check the calendar for the next few weeks and see what time will work best for me. I don’t have any preference other than to get away for a little while and allow myself to relax.
Hal The Cat decided that he wanted to get his new box back after I had stored it in a corner. He managed to pull the box out of the corner and was making all sorts of noise about opening it.
Finally, in order to stop the noise and meowing, I put the box onto the bed and opened it. Now Hal The Cat is happy, and that makes me happy as well.
Keeping Hal The Cat happy is very important to me since he spends most of the day here watching me as I write and work. I don't mind at all because he is a great companion. Occasionally he will voice his opinion during a conference call, and by now most people I talk with regularly know his voice when they hear it. This usually prompts people to ask him how he is doing so they can hear him talk even more. Hal The Cat always has something important to say.

Obviously, Hal The Cat has taken me away from my original topic and that is taking some time away from work to relax. Purrrhaps Hal The Cat is simply showing me how relaxing should be done because he probably understands everything that I am writing.

Dreamer’s World October 12, 2017 – The Small Things

    Far too often we forget that it is the smallest thing that can make a day turn out completely different than what we expect. It is amazing how much a little situation can change a day for the better, but we are usually in too much of a hurry to notice, let alone actually appreciate these things. The perspective that we gain from understanding these events is delightful.
    I experienced such an event yesterday when I traveled to meet with the client. There is a new wrinkle to the schedule with the meeting scheduled for later in the morning than before. This gives me time to grab a lite breakfast while I am in town. I was in the building cafeteria to get my food, and I needed some assistance from one of the young men who was working there to get everything that I needed so I could be on my way. Like any large office building cafeteria, it was extremely crowded and full of people who were lost in their own little worlds.
    I politely asked the young man for assistance, and he responded promptly and pleasantly in return. In my haste to get back to my meeting, I neglected to thank him. I was in a rush and didn’t realize this until I was away from the cafeteria. I realized that not thanking him was bothering me and I made the conscious decision to stop at the cafeteria on my way out of the building later to thank him personally.
    Fate intervened, and as I was on my way back to the cafeteria after finishing my meeting, I decided that I would stop at the restroom on the first floor of the building near the cafeteria before going to thank him. To my surprise, he was coming out of the restroom as I was going in. I stopped him and told him that I was sorry for not taking the time to thank him for helping me earlier in the morning. I expected a blasé response from him, but to my surprise, he reached out and took my hand to thank me for remembering him. We talked for a few minutes. He is a college student working several part-time jobs to get by and trying to better himself. He told me that he often remembers faces during his busy days, mostly because of negative experiences, or people taking him for granted. He was pleasantly surprised that I remembered him enough to speak to him away from his work. He said that as soon as he saw me, he recalled me from earlier, but he never expected me to remember him, let alone taking the time to thank him personally.

    I felt so good for the rest of the day, there was a joy and peace that made everything else irrelevant. It is incredible how much better a day can be when we are kind and human to each other. When we build each other up rather than tearing each other down, the world can be a beautiful place.

06 October 2017

Dreamer’s World October 06, 2017 – It’s The Little Things

    This morning, I woke up to find Hal The Cat sleeping next to me and to the sound of Spartacus greeting me with a friendly meow to announce that Friday had arrived. I deliberately laid there in bed, soaking in the beautiful feeling from two of The Stooges for a few minutes. I enjoyed the peace and calm, and I knew that this is what I have been searching for. All of the introspection of the last few days suddenly came into focus for me.
    I had to finally get out of bed and take care of my morning absolutions before starting work. There was the typical mountain of emails to get through as I signed into work, and I dutifully responded to the high priority issues and set the less critical emails aside to deal with later in the day. I met Hal (person) in the kitchen and my day improved yet again. I do miss sleeping together, but as we have gotten older, our backs have taken separate journeys, and there is just no mattress that we can both agree on that will give us both relief from our occasional aches and pains. This makes the first meeting of the morning that much more special.
    The Stooges joined us in the kitchen, creeping around and between our feet as Hal (person) and I enjoyed our morning hug. After all, it was time for their breakfast as well as ours. I reluctantly left the kitchen to return to work, knowing that I have to complete yet another draft for a project that is looming over me before a review meeting this afternoon. Once I have completed that meeting and noted the suggested improvements for the target audience, my 3-day weekend will commence.

    I saw only a little of the news online this morning, and that was more than enough to convince me that I didn’t need to see any more for a while. I don’t want the problems of the world to intrude on my own little private Idaho. The feelings I have described have been missing from my life for too long, and I am not letting them go without a fight. I have a sense of Peace this morning that I have been lacking. For now, my search for serenity is over. I suppose the way I am feeling explains why I am hearing the Queen song “Don’t Stop Me Now” over and over in my head this morning. It certainly seems like the anthem for my day, so I don’t mind at all.

Dreamer’s World October 05, 2017 – Isolating Myself

    Sometimes I forget how much my life has changed over the last 10 years. I have to take the time and deliberately look back to see how far I have come. I am no longer living paycheck-to-paycheck and scrambling to stay one step ahead of the bills. I still have debts, but they are less now, and manageable as I pay them down. I realize that I no longer have to seek outlets to get away from everyday life and the challenges it presents. My interest in politics is still as keen as ever, but I know now that I used that as a reason to avoid everyday issues for a long time.
    It was a year ago that Hal and I decided that we were going to move to a smaller place and focus on ourselves for a change. We were going to save more money and focus on each other and The Stooges. It seemed like a huge decision at the time, and it was, but it was the first step in taking back control of our lives. As I look back to that decision, it was one of the best that we have ever made. We are happier now because we have gained control over the things that we were struggling against.
    It was so easy to lose myself in the grand struggle against injustice, but at the same time, I was also running away from my own problems. I understand that I cannot change the world single-handed, but I also don’t feel the same need to artificially inject things into my life to get me through the day. I was running away from life rather than embracing it, and those times I missed will never come again. I found little joy in my life outside of Hal and The Stooges, they were my fortress against the outside world.
    Things are better now. I feel I can breathe again. I have slowly regained control over my life and the stuff in it. I no longer live in dread of things, I look forward to them. I no longer feel like I am just surviving. The key to achieving this freedom was, ironically, isolating myself in no small degree from things that I used to worry about. I have discovered the patterns that made me unhappy, and I can now take the necessary steps to eliminate them.
    Instead of always focusing on the negative, I have to make the conscious effort to look on the bright side. This isn't as easy as it sounds because we are all creatures of habit, be they good or bad. Rather than engaging in a futile struggle to find the next windmill to joust to prove my own self-worth, I need to find a more worthy opponent to challenge me. My core beliefs have not changed, but my outlook has, and I approach the things I care about from a more positive angle.
    Anger and resentment and jealousy and fear are no longer in control of my life. I am not entirely free of those negative emotions, but I am in control of them, and it is a beautiful feeling.

    Isolating myself does not mean completely cutting myself off from the world, it means that I now approach the world from a more complete perspective that I control for a change.

05 October 2017

Dreamer’s World October 04, 2017 - Sunshine

    Sometimes, we all need some sunshine in our lives to remind us that life is wonderful. After the tragedies of the last few days, turning off the TV and looking out the window is the best therapy for a sick world.

    I hope that the sun is shining wherever you are. If it isn't, don’t give up. If it is, get out and enjoy the sunshine. 

03 October 2017

Dreamer’s World October 03, 2017 – Free Fallin’

    I was completely stunned to hear that Tom Petty dies last night. I remember hearing the song “Refugee” by Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers when it first played on the radio in early 1980 and I was amazed at the sound of the band, but the lyrics, and by Tom Petty’s voice. It seemed like the perfect mixture of talent and appeal. I was about to turn 16 that month and I thought that these were musicians that I could follow for years if I was lucky.
    It turned out that I was very lucky indeed, but 37 years later, the music has stopped. Much like David Bowie and Prince, Tom Petty is a huge part to the soundtrack of my life. The various incarnations of Tom Petty, and also of Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers, was a wonderful accompaniment to my personal journey. My musical tastes have expanded through my life, but Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers always have a prime spot on the playlist.
    A great song captures the moment when you first hear it. It preserves the memories like nothing else. When I want to think back to a part of my life there is always a song that will take me there. Tom Petty’s music always brings a smile because it was so beautiful.

Well, I won't back down
No, I won't back down
You can stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won't back down
No, I'll stand my ground
Won't be turned around
And I'll keep this world from draggin' me down
Gonna stand my ground

Somewhere, somehow somebody
Must have kicked you around some
Tell me why you want to lay there
And revel in your abandon
Listen it don't make no difference to me baby
Everybody's had to fight to be free
You see you don't have to live like a refugee
Now baby you don't have to live like a refugee

Into the great wide open
Under them skies of blue
Out in the great wide open
A rebel without a clue

Well I started out down a dirty road
Started out all alone
And the sun went down as I crossed the hill
And the town lit up, the world got still
I'm learning to fly, but I ain't got wings
Coming down is the hardest thing

I wanna free fall, out into nothin’
I wanna leave this world for awhile

Thank you for the music, Tom. R.I.P.

02 October 2017

Dreamer’s World October 02, 2017 – “Happiness Is”

      Every day, I take a picture of Snoopy and The Gang to put into a blog post. Somedays I just never get around to writing a post, and there are other days when I just cannot stand what I have written. I always try to start each day with a clear mind and not to let the previous day intrude into the post I am writing. A day like today makes that impossible.
    Snoopy and The Gang are always focused on the theme “Happiness Is.” I cannot find any real happiness this morning as I woke up to the news of the terrorist attack in Las Vegas last night. Time after time, we watch these events unfold and listen to the same tired old responses. Sadly, nothing is ever actually done about the cause of this senseless violence. We are being exploited by those in charge for purely political purposes with these tragedies.
    How does someone walk into a hotel carrying an arsenal of weapons with them? Are there no metal detectors or chemical sensors available that could have detected this? I am sure that there are, but our so-called leaders lack the political courage to do the right thing and implement these measures. Why? Because there is a large and very-well funded terrorist organization that prefers that Americans always be at the mercy of an individual with access to firearms and always holding some type of grudge against someone or something.
    I am talking about the NRA, America’s own domestic terrorist organization. The NRA, which bribes elected representatives to enact so-called “open carry” legislation that places the population at risk so lunatics can carry weapons with them at all times. These terrorists are aided and abetted by the RWNJ lunatics who claim to be pro-life, yet they enable monsters like the one in Las Vegas to kill innocent people. That shows the hypocrisy of their statements. If having a gun is more important than the lives of others, then that is simply WRONG.
    Every time something like the Las Vegas terrorist attack happens, the media always wants to pretend it is a foreign terrorist attack. They do this at the command of the NRA to stir up fear. Whenever the media has to finally admit that the terrorist is an American with a gun, a grudge, and no compassion or common sense, the damage has already been done. Listen to the media spout the NRA terrorist talking points. Instant solutions for the problem that doesn’t exist in this case. Build a wall. Enact a travel ban. Imply that all Muslims are terrorists. All of these fake problems can be cured by the simple solution of being stupid and gullible, and that is exactly what the NRA counts on.
    The solution for the real problem is stricter control of firearms in this country, period. And yet, this is never seriously addressed because enacting stricter firearms control is precisely what the NRA is against. I would like to know how someone could transport an arsenal into a hotel without arousing suspicion. Where are the metal detectors? There are chemical sensors that could have identified explosives/gunpowder. These measures placed at each entrance to the hotel would have saved lives, but that is hindsight, and hindsight is always plentiful after a tragedy.
    I have lost my faith in humanity. There is no god out there to protect us. If things are to change, we have to BE THE CHANGE OURSELVES!

29 September 2017

Dreamer’s World September 28, 2017 – The Final Sprint To The Weekend

    Thursday has arrived, and with it, I can see the weekend looing in the not too distant future. Although today will be extremely busy, I will survive and succeed. In addition to my weekly meeting that I host, I also have to work on a new project for next week, which also has a pre-briefing tomorrow. I also have to take Hal (person) to his dental appointment this morning. Thankfully, his dentist office is not that far away from the apartment, and he will probably walk back since I will be in my meeting when he finishes. This error in planning came from Hal making the appointment without consulting me first, but it is part of learning to deal with him no longer being able to drive and having to depend on me to get him everywhere. I told him to check with me before he makes appointments in the future.
    I also have another important meeting today about yet another project that I am working on right now. This project started about a month ago and is well underway. I believe that this will be very successful to the company and client when it is completed by the end of this year. Like all of the projects I am currently juggling, this one involves tons of writing, it makes me wonder if someone with the company has read this blog and decided to give me plenty of writing to keep me happy?

    Once the day at work is over, I have my own appointment with the chiropractor and acupuncturist early this evening. I am really looking forward to this time for myself, and I hope that it will relax me and let me get some terrific sleep before Friday. That is the plan, at least.

25 September 2017

Dreamer’s World September 25, 2017 – Building A Better Dreamer

    The effort to reconstruct my life is ongoing. I managed to make it through the weekend without being glued to the TV, even for sports, and this is a significant milestone for me. There is so much more to life than sitting in front of the boob tube. I haven’t done nearly as much as I wanted to, but it is a start. The main lesson I have learned is that reconstructing my life will not be as easy as I had hoped.
    The first priority has to be getting myself into better shape, that is, not pear-shaped. If I can manage to get started with an exercise program and not try to do too much right away, I should be OK. The obstacle is the discipline needed to start. I have to will myself to set aside the time to exercise and then make it a part of my daily routine. After that, things will improve quickly.
    The best opportunity is this afternoon after I take Hal to work. I will have several hours to get started, perhaps a nice long walk to get my body moving. There are plenty of people I see walking around the neighborhood, so I am not alone in my desire to get into better shape. I don’t think that I need to hit the weights or the gym right away, that can happen once I get into the routine of setting the time aside for myself and getting off my ass to exercise.
    So far, I have focused on the physical aspects of reconstructing my life. The emotional aspect cannot be neglected because it is just as important. Writing is a big part of this change. If I can document my progress, it will make it more pleasant for me, and it will also give me the inspiration to move forward. The mental aspect of this will really determine how successful I will be.

    I want to say that there is nothing wrong with my life. I am happy and content, but I think that is part of the problem. I need something to strive for to break me out of the comfort zone and broaden my horizons while shrinking my waistline.

22 September 2017

Dreamer’s World September 21, 2017 – Forcing Myself Back To Normal, Whatever That Is

There are times when I find myself struggling to keep a consistent train of thought as I write. I have decided that I will revert to an old trick. I will make a list of things that strike me and then fill in those sections throughout the day. I hope that this will keep me focused and on topic, rather than rambling all over the place. It can be hard enough to stay focused at the best of times. Recently, I have been pulled in so many directions that I need this discipline to keep me focused on writing.
We all find ourselves struggling as we write, I know that I do. Writing is something that drives us from within, and those who have never felt the urge to write find this difficult to understand. With a busy life that demands our attention, it is so easy to let things like writing fade into the background and eventually just drop out of our lives altogether. I don’t want that to happen to me without a fight!
The daily struggle to write comes at a time when I am looking to make things better around here. For some reason, I feel as if I am treading water in my life. I know that this is just not true, but I have failed to take the time for myself and reflect on how much progress I have made over the last year. It is the failure to see the forest due to the trees syndrome to be quite honest. I need to set time aside each day or so to reflect on how things were going in comparison to the past when they weren’t as good as they are today.
I have been making progress at work and home. The list of accomplishments is impressive to me, although some might find it rather mundane. My life has gotten more complicated since Hal can no longer drive. My schedule became more flexible because of this, and while it does add some variety and spice to the day while I am working from home, it can also be a hassle to deal with last-minute things that Hal needs to take care of.
    Work is going along nicely. I have acquired some additional responsibilities and am learning the best way to approach them and incorporate them into my daily routine. There is a learning curve to these new parts of my job, but that has the benefit of engaging my mind and keeping me more alert. It also makes it clear to me that I am a valued employee and that gives me a sense of job satisfaction.
    On the personal side, I am looking forward to getting into the kitchen this evening so I can prepare some pork chops for cooking tomorrow. I have to mix up the marinade sauce and then let the chops soak overnight to get the flavor just right. I always get a little excited when I am going to cook because I know that it will bring forth dinners together with Hal rather than us grabbing something independently. I need the time together with him because he spends most of the day in another room so he won't disturb me while I am working here at home.
    I have a list of ideas for side dishes to go with the pork chops but those will be prepared tomorrow as I cook the chops in the oven. I will leave it to Hal to decide on a nice wine to enjoy with the meal, and I am certain that we will have to make at least one trip to the grocery store for something that we have forgotten. As long as I don’t cook too much at one time, we should be OK.
    The Stooges are all doing well. Hal The Cat spends most of his days sleeping nearby as I work. Occasionally, he will venture out onto the balcony to enjoy the weather and check out his world. Spartacus and Stevie Nicks usually spend most of their time in other rooms as well as the balcony. On rare occasions, there will be a fight between two of The Stooges, but they never last long, and they scatter if Hal or I have to investigate too much noise around the apartment. Thankfully, The Stooges quickly forget what they were fighting about and usually end up together in peace and harmony within a short time.
    Hal (person) keeps himself busy around the apartment during the day. Right now he is doing some laundry and cleaning in other rooms as I work and write. Thankfully the first meeting of the day was a quick one, and I have almost an hour until I have to conduct the meeting that I host just before lunchtime. I believe that my lunch today will be a turkey sandwich and some chips as well as some pickles. That will get me through the rest of the day here.
    As far as the outside world that is not directly related to work, I am continuing my media boycott to preserve my sanity. I have enough to do here and now without making myself crazy with things that I cannot control. If my job required me to focus on current events, that would be fine, but it is not the case. I need my mental energies for the job I have. My priorities have to take precedence over my desires.

    There are times during the day when work takes a back seat to life. Stevie Nicks can make anything look elegant.

18 September 2017

Dreamer’s World September 18, 2017 – Rainy Monday

    Another Monday is here. It seems appropriate that it is rainy and overcast because that suits my mood this morning. I did get to bed early last night, and I probably got at least 8 hours of rest, but I still feel tired today. I also feel disappointed that another weekend has vanished without anything exciting happening.
    I did maintain my TV news boycott as well as not watching any NFL football this weekend. I will be skipping the Monday Night Football game as well. With the treatment of Colin Kaepernick and the total lack of regards for the fans as shown by the league relocating three teams, I feel no loyalty towards them at all.
    I did watch college football on Saturday, but I am not sure how much longer I will keep doing that. The passion has vanished for me, and I don’t understand why. Until recently I was a sports fanatic, but now I find myself caring less and less.
    The job continues to grow. I have additional tasking that I am now responsible for each week. I know that this is a good thing because it proves my value to the company, but I also find myself feeling empty at times about everything. It’s almost like I prefer to feel blue right now. I have to gather enough motivation to get me through today and this evening since I have to take Hal to and from his job after I finish my job this afternoon. I feel like the routine curses me with no means of escape.

    The afternoon has arrived. I have made some tremendous progress on my new tasking, but the feeling of emptiness still lingers. The sun has come out, but I still feel like it is raining. Perhaps this is just one of those times when I need to surrender to the blues and let things sort themselves out. I feel like I am in a boat without any oars, the best thing to do is just to let the currents take me where they will.

12 September 2017

Dreamer’s World September 11, 2017 – Sensory Overload

    I think that I have found one of the reasons I have been so damned tired recently. The constant shitstorm that passes for the world around us managed to creep into my own little private Idaho. Despite my best efforts, the outside world managed to find the cracks in the walls that I had built, and like water corrupting a dam, my walls began to suffer.
    There is nothing that I learned from these intrusions that I didn’t already know. The NAZI is still in the White House, people are still incredibly stupid and seem to be determined to become even stupider. Hurricanes and earthquakes will happen somewhere in the world, and human suffering will always be the bread and butter of the media. Nothing changes except for the particular examples of these themes. I thought that I had managed to isolate myself successfully and I was happier than I have ever been. My writing was flowing naturally, and I was full of positive energy.
    I need to get back to that place. The realization hit me when I remembered that today is the day when people politicize tragedy to promote their agendas of hate and war. My instinct is to ignore these subliminal attempts to hijack my mind, and that is what made me think about the other things mentioned above. My broken walls need serious repair. I am leaving the TV OFF today and will try to keep that going for the next several days. No amount of information overload will change the shitstorm around me, and I know that it does nothing more than distracting me from my own life and make me exhausted.

    I deserve better than this. I am going to rededicate myself to my life, and Hal and The Stooges. Only then will I feel better and enjoy my life as I should. There is plenty of stuff in my daily life to keep me occupied and happy forever. I just have to make the conscious decision to focus on those things and not worry about things that I cannot control.

08 September 2017

Dreamer’s World September 07, 2017 – Instilling Calm

    With the world in endless crisis mode, it's hard to find the calm and inner peace that I need. Whether it is a NAZI in the White House, nuclear weapons in North Korea, or hurricanes devastating coastlines, sometimes it just seems to be too much to process for any individual. At times like this, the TV stays OFF, and I restrict the amount of information that I allow myself to process.
The anger at the political situation, the unease over the nuclear issue, and the sadness and concern for the people affected by the hurricanes can overwhelm us at times. It sounds cold and harsh, but we have to decide to stop listening and watching for awhile. Personally, I need an environment where I can relax and NOT think about those things for a period. No amount of concern from me will change any of those situations instantly, to let them consume me is illogical and dangerous, because it affects my judgment in my everyday life.
I want to get outside and take a nice long walk to get away from the issues. I want to write about something other than how I try to get away from the issues; I want to purge these matters from my mind. I have things that I need to focus on here and now. I have work to keep me occupied for the day. I have Hal and The Stooges to think about after that. I have the upcoming weekend to discover.

I know that emotionally it's hard to let things go. It requires concentration and effort. Our human nature wants to see things and collect information, but we overload far too easily, and then our attention is worthless.

07 September 2017

Dreamer’s World September 06, 2017 – Back To The Normal Work Routine

    I knew that this day would arrive. I had to get up early to start work once again. The only thing that makes this different from a regular working Wednesday is that I am not traveling to the client’s office this morning. I have earned enough cache’ to be able to skip a week now and then without having any lasting repercussions. Honestly, I just didn’t want to get out into the traffic with rain falling to make the trip. I will be making that trip next Wednesday anyway.
    I feel refreshed after my time away from work. In hindsight, it was best that we didn’t plan anything for the time off because that always turns into a hassle and leaves me more tired than when vacation starts. I did what I needed to do, and I got more rest over the last five days, and that is what I needed. All I have to do now is endure this short week, and then I can recharge again over the weekend.

    I have been following the news through my usual alternate channels over the last few weeks. I remain disappointed with the NAZI in the White House, but not surprised. With the hurricanes and North Korea, it is enough to make one want just to give up, but I remain convinced that we can do better once the NAZI is gone. I feel terrible for the people who have been affected by the hurricane in Texas, and for those who are being affected by Irma. Hearing and seeing things like that make me glad that I have never wanted to live anywhere like Texas or Florida. I have on desire to live at or near the ocean, especially in areas that are susceptible to hurricanes. I hope that somehow, Irma swerves away from land and misses everyone. I know that this is naïve, but I don’t want to see anyone harmed or killed. Stay safe if you are in the path of this storm.

05 September 2017

Dreamer’s World September 05, 2017 – Last Day of My Staycation

    Today marks the last day of my “staycation.” I am sad to think that I must go back to work tomorrow morning, but at the same time, I find myself wondering where the time went over the last several days. I guess that I regretted not doing more when I had the chance, but I needed the extra rest that I got over that time. I am thinking about any last-minute things to do on this last day away from work. I don’t know that anything will happen, I will just let things play themselves out.
    I know that I needed the break from everything. My writing took a hit since I deliberately wanted to get out of my routine. One thing that I have already decided is that I will not travel tomorrow morning to the clients’ offices. I go there almost every single week, and I do deserve a break from that to catch up on things in the morning. I will send them an email tomorrow morning informing them of my decision and letting them know that I will see them next week.
    The only real downside to the staycation was that Hal still had to work. We made time for each other regardless, and I would not change the time we had together at all. I enjoyed sleeping in late and not having to stress about other people on the job. I needed that break from things to clear my mind and to restore my sanity.
    I have been careful to monitor how much I let the outside world intrude over the last few days. The latest round of chaos wasn’t affected by my lack of attention; I am sure of that.

    And so, as I listen to some Jazz this morning, I am mentally preparing myself for the end of staycation. I will make sure to arrange another staycation soon.

30 August 2017

Dreamer’s World August 30, 2017 – My Latest Attempt To Get Back To Writing Daily

    This post marks the latest attempt to get back into the daily writing routine. All of the excuses, all of the rationalization about why I could not get this done are no longer valid. I will force myself to begin the routine over again because I am irritable with my lack of results. I need to write, I want to write, and the only way to make things better is to write.
    I suppose that today’s picture sums up how I feel. Happiness is someone who listens to you. Of course, that only works when you say something. Silence usually does not get results until it is far too late. I can post all of the stories and news articles that I want, but they won't help me with my problem until I decide to do something to fix it myself. I am guilty of letting valid reasons for not writing become a series of daily excuses, and I loathe myself for it. My soul will not find rest until I get these things off of my chest, and the best way to find release is to write. I don’t have to cover the issues that got in my way; they aren’t important except for stopping me from writing.
    Leave it to Snoopy and the Gang to make me pause and reflect on my situation. I randomly rotate the cards daily, and then I make the picture. Today, Snoopy and the Gang spoke directly to me with their simple message of Happiness. I almost felt chills when I saw the picture because it made me recognize how much I had neglected my writing. Whatever else is going on will still; be going on after I write for a little while. No life or death issue took me away from writing; it was laziness and nothing more.

    I suppose that we all need encouragement from time to time. I want to thank Snoopy and the Gang for providing it to me.


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25 August 2017

Dreamer’s World August 25, 2017 – Nearly Finished

Once again, writing is a chore. I have been so busy with constantly shifting requirements at work, and difficulties with my former doctor and these problems have kept me from having the time and energy to write in my blog. With the week at work finally over I can now try to get things organized and attempt to relax and focus on things that are important to me.
I spent time after work yesterday finalizing the break with my former doctor. Email messages from her were more than snotty about my scheduled appointment next week. She wanted to bitch that I had neglected to schedule sooner and I had to correct her since the schedule was her responsibility. I could not see her when she was not available. I went to her office after work and signed the release forms to send my medical records to another doctor recommended to me.
Hal and I enjoyed dinner out as well, and we also checked out T-Mobile because Hal wanted to see the new Samsung phone to find out about the cost. I had toyed with the idea of the iPhone 8, but when I found out that the starting price was set for $1000, it made the decision to stick with Android and Project Fi very easy.
Plans to venture out after work today rapidly fell apart because I was much more tired than I realized I would be. We did stop at the grocery store and then Burger King before returning home and I then laid on the couch and took a nap. Stevie Nicks is helping me as I write at the dining room table this evening before I take my shower and really relax for the evening.

Tomorrow I will take Hal to work and then pick him up in the afternoon. While he is at work, I will find something to occupy my time but I don't expect anything spectacular or out of the ordinary. Again I will try to have a pleasant and quiet weekend without any drama so I will feel refreshed when the time comes to return to work net Monday.

22 August 2017

Dreamer’s World August 22, 2017 – Writer’s Block

    I am suffering from Writer’s Block. It seems that nothing I write recently is worth posting, and I am not sure what to do about it. I keep starting a blog post each day, and by the time I read it back to myself, I just delete it because it is pure garbage, at least to me. I think the real danger would be to stop writing altogether, that will not help me at all. So, I will try this once again and hope that I can finally break the mental barrier that seems to frustrate me.

    I am sure that exhaustion plays a significant role in the Writer’s Block. I will try to go to bed early this evening and hope for a nice, long, restful night of sleep. I know that will do wonders for my mood and my outlook on life right now. I will have to get some things done before I can go to bed, however, such as making dinner and catching up with Hal and spending time with The Stooges. Those things cannot be ignored. They are far too important to me.

17 August 2017

Dreamer’s World August 16, 2017 – Making It Through Wednesday

    I have had an interesting day. The OneDrive problem was corrected, and I am back to my normal routine for writing, and that is a relief for me. This morning I went to the client’s office and kept my mouth shut about politics, which was difficult for me. There are too many people working there who are supporters of the NAZI in the White House. I know better than to talk about things that will cause nothing but trouble. I know that if the subject comes up, those people will start screaming to make their point. While this is hysterical as far as I am concerned, it attracts other people and causes a scene.
    I had other issues to deal with this morning as I left the apartment. On my way down the stairs, I stumbled, and I am almost certain that I hyperextended my left knee. It has been sore ever since, but there is no swelling. I hobbled to the client’s office and then back home without any further injury. I will have it checked when I go to the Chiropractor and Acupuncturist tomorrow after work just to be certain that nothing is wrong.
    When I got to the Metro station this morning, the train that I boarded had no A/C. There is nothing worse than being on a packed commuter train with no air circulation. I exited the train after two stops and waited for another train which did have A/C.
    After all that, I made it back home in time to get lunch and start working again. Thankfully, the afternoon meetings were short, and I was able to get more things done around here rather than sit and listen to people arguing.
    I don’t think that we are going anywhere after I finish work. With a sore knee and Hal wanting to stay here, there is no need to go out. I will cook dinner, and we will have a quiet evening at home for a change. Hal is resigned to not being able to drive anymore due to his vision problems. I am not sure if I would handle that as well as he has. I will be the chauffeur from now on, and that is fine with me.

    With all of the hatred and chaos in the world today, I think it is ironic that I am happy with my own life, as well as Hal and The Stooges. I vow to let nothing interfere with our happiness even as we struggle to contain the hatred and chaos of the outside world and make it a better place for everyone.

15 August 2017

Dreamer's World August 15 2017 - The Best-Laid Plans

      We all need the right tools to write our personal blogs. Often we go through phases where we are completely convinced that we have found the perfect tools to make creating the blog posts easier. It seems like every time we find that perfect tool, something inevitably goes wrong. This is the case I have just gone through with this blog.
   I use a variety of software apps to write. Often the tools I use at any given time depending on what platform I am writing from at the time. Whether I am writing from a PC, my iMac, or scribbling something down on my phone, I always try to find the set of tools that will allow me to seamlessly move from one platform to another while writing the same post. Normally, this saves time and effort and generally makes writing easier. Until it doesn't.
   Because I spend so much of my day at work on a PC, I began to use OneDrive from Microsoft to start my blog posts. It worked well for me and allowed me to send my completed posts off without a lot of extra effort. Last Friday I noticed that there was a problem syncing my OneDrive. It has gotten worse, and this morning I am completely giving up on OneDrive until I can find a solution to the problem. I have gone back to Google Docs for now and am adjusting to the little quirks that I had forgotten.
   I really like to use the Grammarly app to check my spelling and context as I write, but there is no direct plug-in for Chrome at this time. To get around this problem, I am typing the post directly into the Grammarly app, and then I will copy and paste (ugh) it to Google Docs and then publish from there. This means remembering a new set of steps that I have to take to publish a blog post,
   I am a creature of habit. The longer it takes to resolve the OneDrive issue, the more likely I will resist moving things back to OneDrive. I wish that I was a programmer/developer so I could make a system that worked seamlessly and I would never have to go through this disruption to my routine again. Until then, I will memorize this system and make the best of it.

Dreamer's World August 15 2017 - Bouncing Back

More than enough has happened around here over the last several days. The world watched in horror as NAZIS killed an innocent woman in Charlottesville, VA. I won't attempt to write more about that right now because something more important happened yesterday, at least something that affects my little corner of the world.
   Because Hal cannot drive after dark, I took him to work yesterday in the early evening. Afterward, I stopped at the grocery store and then returned home. When the time came to go and get Hal from work, I left the apartment and drove to his work location and waited for him. He finished at work on time, and I brought him home safely.
   We did make one stop at the mailbox before we got to the apartment. I had a few items, nothing important. Hal had a letter from the Commonwealth of Virginia. The letter informed him that due to the changing standards for driver's licenses he is now no longer able to drive at all. This didn't come as a total surprise to us, and it is something that we have planned for over the last several years. Hal suffers from glaucoma, and his vision is not good. Thankfully, it has stabilized and has not gotten worse, but the standards have changed for keeping a Virginia license.
   For the last three years, Hal had a restricted license that specified he could only drive during daylight hours. That is the reason I always take him to work and pick him up on Monday nights. On Saturday and Sunday, Hal has been able to drive back and forth to work on his own. Now, I will take him to and from work on the weekend and Mondays as well. Since we knew that this day would eventually arrive, we have prepared for it. We won't have to make any drastic changes to get through the situation.

   When you love someone, you do whatever it takes to get through the years together. In January Hal and I will celebrate 18 wonderful years together, and we hope for many more years to come.

11 August 2017

Dreamer’s World August 11, 2017 – Keeping A Secret

    Keeping a secret is hard to do, but worth the effort. I can keep a secret very easily, but it is something that I had to learn to do through the years. Keeping a secret means that I am trustworthy to those who share their secrets with me, and I am proud to do so. Keeping a secret also means that I have my secrets and I don’t tell them to anyone some of the time.
    For more than two months, I had a secret and kept it from everyone, including Hal. The reason was simple; I wanted to surprise Hal for his upcoming birthday. Since Hal will be working on his birthday, I made plans to have his presents and his surprise gift waiting for him yesterday. Thanks to the convenience of Amazon, getting his gifts here was not a problem. They arrived yesterday and after I finished work I gave them to him. The look on his face was reward enough, but there was one last surprise for him.
    I told Hal that I was taking him to dinner. I said we would leave at 1800 for dinner. I didn’t take him to the restaurant. Instead, I drove to the acupuncturist's office, saying that I had to settle a bill with the insurance copay. When we got there, Hal wanted to wait in the car. I finally told him that things might take a while and that he should come inside with me. I had to force him to leave the car, but he still didn’t know what was going on.
    Once we were inside the office, I told the staff that “I have him here now.” I revealed my secret. I saw Hal silently mouth a comment to me as he realized that he was going to have an acupuncture session for the very first time. The secret that I had been keeping from him for nearly two months. After nearly 18 years together, I can read Hal very well, and the expression told me that I had successfully kept my secret from him.
    Hal enjoyed the acupuncture session. Perhaps he will go back again. After we had left the office, he told me how I had fooled him by keeping the secret. He was totally surprised, and that was the point. I enjoy keeping a secret until the time is right to reveal it.

10 August 2017

Dreamer’s World August 09, 2017 – The Latest Temper Tantrum from Illegitimate NAZI in the White House

    After yesterday’s unhinged rant from the NAZI in the White House, the time has come once again to say that this idiot is completely nuts! To think that he somehow is supposed to represent this nation (in my opinion, he does NOT, and never will), is frightening.
    I saw the temper tantrum and was stunned by the body language that I saw the NAZI use. He crosses his arms like he is hugging himself. I see nothing but a spoiled brat who wants his way and will make threats to achieve what he wants. Sounds like the other brat in this situation, Kim Jung Un, doesn’t it?

    The expression is another sign that this is a very immature human or perhaps a moderately above average orangutan with delusions of grandeur.

07 August 2017

​Dreamer’s World August 07, 2017 – Noticing The Difference As Summer Goes On

I woke up this morning at 0600, my normal time for the start of a workday and noted how dark it still was outside. There is nothing alarming about this, just another sign that time is moving along despite our wishes that Summer go on forever. I find myself remembering when I was a kid and how much I enjoyed every single summer day, or so it seemed at the time. I wonder how I will feel when Autumn arrives, and Summer will be a memory once again. 
There is nothing magical about the passage of time, but our memories make it seem so. There are times when I can almost feel the sun on my skin as I remember summer days as a kid. I can vividly recall details and find myself reminded of particular days at random. I can recall hitting a baseball, diving off the high board, running through the grass, and looking around and feeling the wonder of existence when I was young. I remember thinking to myself, wondering what my life would be like when I was an adult. 
I suppose that those memories are my childhood calling out to me, reminding me that I still have a sense of wonder about the world around me, no matter how cynical I have become as I have gotten older. I am wiser nowbut not happier. Responsibilities take up most of my time, and I have to work even more to find the time to do what I want to do. The loss of innocence is the price we pay for growing up. We lose a part of ourselves and regret it. We force the child into hiding, to be replaced by the adult. The child tries to get out at times when our memories are triggered, but the sad part is that we condition ourselves to ignore these cries for help and understanding because we are supposed to be “mature.” This Monday, I wish that I was a child again, if only for a little while.